No I'm not fine, I'm sad, I got banned from my own wiki due to admin rights. It's only 2 weeks. But still that's not fair, That wiki was originally going to be my wiki and let other people watch it until those new admins came up. I was crying hard a lot today cause of that.
Don't feel too bad. I was the same way when joining, but it just took time. I totally understand how you feel, having been there, but there's light at the end of the dark tunnel! Don't worry. I'd be happy to help encourage ya until you reach that point!